Know I don't, but Buffy gave me a chance once. She might give me another. Willows already singing my praises. Even Faith wants to make nice.
The closer I get the more I get to thinking, who am I to meddle in all this? What if me from back then kills them cause they think its me. Or what if they can get him to turn around faster-- that ones not so bloody likely but this place mucks with time and it isnt right. It isnt fair.
Course it isnt fair but when is this place ever fair. Its exactly like real life. Theres nothing easy about it, nothing simple. You just have to do what you think is right.
I dont want to think about how bad this could go. if he tries to drag me down with him one more time itll still be my fault. for trusting him for letting him out. thinking he could be something better. But I cant make myself stop because hes still adam. I still care about him more then i should and theres nothing I can do about it
[ sent another few seconds later: ] Hes the last person that might be on my side and if he goes I cant fix this
Wed better bloody hope he doesnt then [He stops himself from telling Pete how gay that had sounded. The kid was hurting, and Spike had been there.]
I can tell you one thing. You believing in him is your best chance. Buffy believed in me and I got my soul for her. He's already got one of those, you just have to wake it up, huh? Headstart.
And if I cant? if hes got some ulterior motive again and I help him do it just because theres a chance
[ Peter's next text message comes a minute later because maybe it's time to be called out on his gayness. Since it's so much a part of this. ] Letting my feelings for him cloud my judgement is the worse thing I can do. and if thats what happens then theres no one to blame but me for whatever he does. But I know all of that and I still believe in him.
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