I just.. you may think it's a lost cause, or that you're damned so what the hell's the point. But that's the coward's way. I know you got it in you to be a good guy, like you said, vamps on your world don't even lose their souls so that's one less thing you gotta fight for. You feel bad about biting this kid, I know you do, otherwise I would kill you and damn the fucking consequences.